i have spent a lot of today just filling out job applications online. walgreens, planet smoothie, walmart -failed the assessment test- and macys. 
i also canceled my loan that i applied for. 
going home tomorrow to see my two lovers. 
things seem to be getting more complicated. 

 


finals for my first semester of college are this week and history is really the only problem.
i'm looking forward to going home this coming weekend and staying for a good month.
which i'm sure it will be anything but good.
i get my hopes up and i'm always let down. 
if i could just learn to focus on girl friends and family when i'm home
instead of boyfriends and ex boyfriends then i'd be ok i'm sure.

i pretty much dream up a way i expect a guy i like to be and once i get to know him
he's not as great as i had imagined.
my expectations are possibly too high or guys just aren't into me as much as they say.
because they sure let me down.